I was disposable and choking on it

Revisiting Joule Seventeen’s short film "CALLMECALLMECALLME," starring Allison Wick, released one year ago this week.

This poignant short film delves into the complexities of emotional abuse and dependency within a romantic relationship, shedding light on the often-unseen struggles that the individual faces on their own. The film features a captivating original poem by Joule Seventeen, an evocative original score of the same name, and a mesmerizing performance by Allison Wick, known for her recent appearance on "Law & Order: SVU."

"CALLMECALLMECALLME" marks an important milestone in Joule Seventeen's artistic journey as she ventures into filmmaking and scoring. Drawing upon her own experiences and the experiences of others, she skillfully weaves a narrative that captures the intricacies of an unbalanced emotional relationship. The film highlights the power dynamics and psychological complexities present in toxic relationships, by showcasing the victim in various different hyperbolic states and variations of herself.

The poem serves as the foundation of "CALLMECALLMECALLME," providing a personal and authentic perspective. The original song, produced and engineered entirely by Joule Seventeen herself from her New York City studio apartment, the accompanying song captures the essence of the narrative, delivering a powerful and haunting message to the audience.

Allison Wick, actress known for her recent appearance on "Law & Order: SVU," delivers a captivating performance in the leading role. Wick's ability to convey vulnerability and strength simultaneously adds depth and authenticity to the film. Her nuanced portrayal allows viewers to connect with the character on a profound level, further amplifying the film's impact.

The original song featured in "CALLMECALLMECALLME" is now available for streaming on all major music platforms. Listeners can experience the powerful fusion of poetry, music, and storytelling, making it an essential addition to their playlists.

“CALLMECALLMECALLME”

There was a time before all of this
Before the comfort, before the hiding
I was straightforward and proud
You were a fence around me
Cross my heart, hope to die

Call me, I'm so embarrassed
Swallow me, accuse me
I recovered and I am unrecognizable
Missing the target over and over again

The white hot taste of this extraordinary pain
I was disposable and choking on it
You exploited the best things about me
Compliments like little drops of poison

I scattered my body throughout your world
The inertia kept me unaware of the damage done
But I can still trace the places your hands met mine
Isn't it strange how the mind draws a blank?

I am a paper doll sitting on a shelf
I am barreling forward
I am floating into heaven
I am pleasant, I am kind, I am numb
I intend for this to reach you
Wherever you are